For the first month I decided I’ll tell no one about my blog. “Why should I”, I thought. I dint think I was doing anything worthwhile and more so dint think I can really sustain this blogging habit. So in order to not lose face incase I decide blogging isn’t my cup of tea, I told no one. But me being me, the blabbermouth, I could contain myself no more and told four of my very close friends about this blog of mine around two weeks ago. While two friends ( let’s call them A and B) were so happy and genuinely excited for me, to the extent that they subscribed to follow my posts and told me what they felt about each post, the third friend, C, whom I’m actually the closest with, reacted so wierdly that I was kind of taken aback. She said she read every post but had nothing to say about them. Also, when in her presence, if A or B spoke anything about my blog she turned a deaf ear to the whole conversation. And then there is this friend D, the last friend to whom I opened up about this blog. She seemed pretty happy about it and told me to send the link “whenever I pleased” and spoke about the whole process of reading my blog like she was doing me a favor.
I dont know what was the cause for this “couldn’t-care-less” attitude by friends I consider closest and though I think about it in a sad way sometimes I dont want it to actually affect me. This is my blog and I get so much excitement preparing for each post, carefully wording them and get equal pleasure interacting with strangers (who I’m happening to like a lot more than some friends lately) in their respective blogs.
Are those friends jealous that I’m doing something I love? Im not a very bad friend you know..I mean..I am always at their side willing to share their happy and testing moments with them. I am a pretty good listener and when they have issues I dont forget to follow up and help them resolving them in whatever small ways I can. Then why are they being so insensitive? Why are they being so immature and petty?
However this incident may or may not have affected me, it has made one thing very clear, that my initial decision about me telling no one about my blog was the right choice. I want this to be my happy place. Where I don’t want to think what others may think. Where I don’t have to behave in a particular sane manner in order to keep everyone happy.
Before you get tired of my constant cribbing let me show you the last of my DIY canvas painting projects which I completed successfully over the weekend 😀 Tell me what you think 😀
P.S.: For the record, (yes more groaning!) this friend C reacted in that exact same I-dont-give-a-f#$% sort of way when I told her about my painting hobby too Yup weird.!!!
Thanks for patiently reading my complaints. What or how do you think I should react? Help!!! 😐